Released: September 30, 2020

Featuring: ​patchymate

Songwriter: ​patchymate ​abbot (USA)

Producer: ​patchymate ​abbot (USA)

[Intro: abbot]
What are you afraid of?
What about everything you're made of? oh
It just hurts to let them down
Better yet it kills you
No one wants to hear 'bout what you will do, oh
Just make it happen

[Verse: patchymate]
To call you in a place in my heart
I had to tell you I fucked up from the start
I’m sorry I’ve been screaming a lot
It’s too cathartic and I like my voice shot
I’m sorry mom my grades ain’t too hot
I just don’t care for Aristotle’s life laws
Wasn’t he a sexist?
How could you expect me just to text this?
I had to call this shits quite a lot

[Chorus: patchymate]
You wanted to be a creator, no
You've got nothing to say

[Bridge: abbot]
Run from your goals, or
Run away from home
You’re so indecisive
Just pick one and go

Did it ever occur to you guys that I don't know what I'm doing?
Okay? I'm scared
My whole life, I've been trying to please other people
I don't know who I am, or what I want to do
I don't wanna wake up in five years and hate my life

[Verse: abbot]
I tried to run away from home
I tried to do it in my own
What if it don’t work out, cause
Every other week I'm broke as fuck
And now I'm choking up
What would you say if you saw me now?

What good would it do to be sorry now?
I’m in too deep
Remember back when I was starting out
Like 15
I never thought I would have to worry bout if my piss clean
I thought that I’d finished by 18, and be 6 feet

Underground
Couldn’t seem to face my own problems and so I spun around
Thought things would be different if started in another town
Never thought my momma would see me as such let down
It was all my fault so it makes sense now

Tried to create, but I’m the breaker
Think it’d be best for now if I see you later
Or better yet maybe I see you never
Maybe I just need to get through this so I get better

[Chorus: patchymate]
You wanted to be a creator, no
You've got nothing to say
Can't erase what life has written in pen
Thought you said you were built to create
You wanted to be a creator, no
You've got nothing to say
Can't erase what life has written in pen
Thought you said you were built to create

​abbot (USA)

you can change the world; create

but you got to break it first

contact // abbotwdm@gmail.com