Released: January 22, 2020

Songwriter: ​abbot (USA)

Producer: ​abbot (USA)

[Verse]
Hate thee
I could never
Vaguely
I remember
I saw you
Look the other way

Told thee
Now or never
Ignored me
For the better
Well rea-
-soned, I won’t complain

I know you’re holding some tears
They haunt your new memories
Don’t waste your life cause time is great
I’m over years and years
I’m feeling empty
I know you don’t but I’m afraid

[Chorus]
That when these drugs wear off
Would you be there for me babe?
(Me babe?)
And even if you were
Would you look at me the same?
(Look at me the same?)

I've been feeling
HD, suffocate me
Hold my neck and never let me go
This is my punishment
So make me learn my lesson and
Hate me
I deserve it
Don’t look back it’ll only hurt I know
You were my everything
My Heartbreak and Depression

[Bridge]
So if you loved me, how was i supposed to know?
Now we’re fading, losing what we wanted most

She was scared of the sky falling
I’ll be right there baby I promise
I was blinded
She was bound, but
She should be flying
But I weighed her down

[Verse]
But then she called you
Late night, crying on the phone
Telling you that she
Misses you at home
So then you grab your keys
And step into your car
You better pick up speed
Now that you’re on the boulevard

So don’t you fuck this up you know that you gotta go faster
Don’t you?
Pick it up, your foot on the floor it don’t matter
Focus
Thought that you made a promise, I hope you’re not this dishonest
So floor it
She needs you, I beg you

But in spite of how you feel it’s not the end of the world
Some say these things are for the best, for better or worse

[Bridge]
I bet your skin crawls when you hear my name, hear my name
I bet your skin crawls
I bet your ski-skin-

[Outro]
You were right
Calling my bluff
I'm not the guy or the man that I thought I was
Weak
Drown me in bleach
Rip out my teeth and just give me what I deserve
Wait
What did you mean?
Back when I heard you screaming at the top of your lungs
Held
Me on the cheek
Tears in your eyes as you tell me I'm not enough

Right
Calling my bluff
I'm not the guy or the man that I thought I was
Weak
Drown me in bleach
Rip out my teeth and just give me what I deserve
Wait
What did you mean?
Back when I heard you screaming at the top of your lungs
Held
Me on the cheek
Tears in your eyes as you tell me I'm not enough

​abbot (USA)

you can change the world; create

but you got to break it first

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