Released: January 17, 2020

Songwriter: Fred again.. Romy Ed Sheeran Halsey Louis Bell

Producer: Fred again.. Louis Bell

[Intro]
Oh, oh
Yeah

[Verse 1]
I should be living the dream
But I'm livin' with a security team
And that ain't gonna change, no
I got a paranoia in me
And you wouldn't believe
Everything that I seen, no
Comin' apart at the seams
And no one around me knows

[Pre-Chorus]
Who I am, what I'm on
Who I've hurt and where they've gone
I know that I've done some wrong
But I'm tryna make it right
To the one I love, bring me 'round
Get me out right now (Oh-oh)
And know that I love you

[Chorus]
But I'm still learning to love myself
(To love my–, to love my–, to love my–)
I'm still learning to love myself
(To love my–, to love my–, to love my–) Yeah, yeah

[Verse 2]
I should be living the dream
But I go home and I got no self-esteem (Nope)
You think I'm swimmin' in green
But it's passed around my family tree
No man wants to really commit
Intimidated 'cause I get paid and shit
In the crowd, you're readin' my lips
But no one around me knows

[Pre-Chorus]
Who I am, what I'm on
Who I've hurt and where they've gone
I know that I've done some wrong
But I'm tryna make it right
The same mistakes on and on
To all my friends, I'm sorry for
And know that I love you

[Chorus]
But I'm still learning (I'm still learning) to love myself
(To love my–, to love my–, to love my–) Yeah, yeah
I'm still learning (I'm still learning) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my–, to love my–, to love my–) Yeah, yeah (Oh, oh)
Oh, I try and I try to remember sometimes
If I breathe, it's alright, but some things don't change
I'm still learning (I'm still learning) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my–, to love my–, to love myself) Yeah, yeah

[Bridge]
Who I am, what I'm on
Who I've hurt and where they've gone
I know that I've done some wrong
But I'm tryna make it right
To the one I love, bring me 'round
Get me out right now (And the ones I love)
And the ones I love

[Chorus]
I'm still learning to love myself
(To love my–, to love my–, to love my–) Yeah, yeah
I'm still learning (I'm still learning) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my–, to love my–, to love my–, ooh)
And I try and I try to remember sometimes
If I breathe, it's alright, but some things don't change
I'm still learning (I'm still learning) to love myself (I'm still learning)
To love myself, tryna love myself

[Outro]
I'm still learning to love myself

Halsey

Halsey is the stage name of New Jersey singer Ashley Nicolette Frangipane. It is an anagram of her first name and reference to the Halsey Street subway stop and street in Brooklyn where she used to live. The bio on her website

I am Halsey. I will never be anything but honest. I write songs about sex and being sad."

Halsey was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when she was 17. This has greatly influenced her creative process from the start of her career. Songs like “Control” and “Gasoline” explicitly delve into her psychological and emotional battles. Manic, Halsey’s third album and arguably her rawest and most emotionally vulnerable, was written in a fully manic state rather than a depressive one.