Released: July 5, 2019
Featuring: Lil Skies
Songwriter: Machine Gun Kelly Lil Skies JP Did This 1 SlimXX BazeXX Liv Marisco John Stary Alex Lustig
Producer: JP Did This 1 Alex Lustig BazeXX SlimXX
[Verse 1: Machine Gun Kelly & Lil Skies]
Yeah, this one's for the mama that I never knew (Never knew)
I took acid just to burn all of my memories of you
I guess now I really wanna know the truth
How'd you leave your only child at nine for another dude?
Took that pain and punched my father in the stomach 'til he bled
Hit the store and stole a 40 and took that shit to the head
All the years that you ignored me, left me sleepless in the bed
I hope that he got some kids because your only son is dead
My revenge, got it in the end (In the end)
I'm so hard to reach, you won't see me again (Me again)
I spent 20 years waiting on the stairs
Now I'm finished thinking anyone will ever hear these prayers
[Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly]
If I die before I wake, smoke me out at Heaven's gate
Bring me back to life on Sunday, pour me up the devil's drink
Wake up, go to work on Monday, grind it out for seven straight
You showed me that just because we're blood don't mean we relate
[Post-Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly & Phem with Lil Skies]
All my dark days came in the summer
All my thoughts changed, now I'm the loner
Everything stayed, you were the runner
Watched your train go away through the tunnels
[Verse 2: Lil Skies & Machine Gun Kelly]
Hold up, stack my money up just for a rainy day
Play with MGK and I will pull up where you stay (Yeah)
I die for my brother, I don't have nothin' to say (No)
I died when my baby mama told me I was fake (Damn)
I got real shooters, they ain't worried 'bout a case (Woah)
I got people talkin', but won't say shit to my face (Yeah)
EST for life, my opps all rolling in they grave (Damn)
See me doin' good, I put that work in like a slave (Work)
Up all night, mind cloudy, don't be spooked
If I show you love, then will you always tell the truth? (Truth)
Feel like I'm goin' crazy, couldn't trust no one but you (You)
Suicidal thoughts keep tellin' me jump off the roof
If I die tonight, know, I ain't got nothin' to prove
CSI gon' say we was the realest in the room
Fuck with mine, I kill 'cause I got everything to lose
Fuck with mama, you know what I'll do (Yeah)
[Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly]
If I die before I wake, smoke me out at Heaven's gate
Bring me back to life on Sunday, pour me up the devil's drink
Wake up, go to work on Monday, grind it out for seven straight
You showed me that just because we're blood don't mean we relate
[Post-Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly & Phem with Lil Skies]
All my dark days came in the summer
All my thoughts changed, now I'm the loner
Everything stayed, you were the runner
Watched your train go away through the tunnels
[Outro: Fingazz & Lil Skies]
Ooh, ooh, ooh
The memories (Woah) keep playing on repeat (Yeah)
I burn 'em all so I can start sleeping (Woah)
And all the bad, I'll make it good (Yeah)
I wouldn't change the past if I could (Woah)
These memories, they won't get the best of me, whoa (Yeah)
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Yeah, this one's for the mama that I never knew (Never knew)
I took acid just to burn all of my memories of you
I guess now I really wanna know the truth
How'd you leave your only child at nine for another dude?
Took that pain and punched my father in the stomach 'til he bled
Hit the store and stole a 40 and took that shit to the head
All the years that you ignored me, left me sleepless in the bed
I hope that he got some kids because your only son is dead
My revenge, got it in the end (In the end)
I'm so hard to reach, you won't see me again (Me again)
I spent 20 years waiting on the stairs
Now I'm finished thinking anyone will ever hear these prayers
[Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly]
If I die before I wake, smoke me out at Heaven's gate
Bring me back to life on Sunday, pour me up the devil's drink
Wake up, go to work on Monday, grind it out for seven straight
You showed me that just because we're blood don't mean we relate
[Post-Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly & Phem with Lil Skies]
All my dark days came in the summer
All my thoughts changed, now I'm the loner
Everything stayed, you were the runner
Watched your train go away through the tunnels
[Verse 2: Lil Skies & Machine Gun Kelly]
Hold up, stack my money up just for a rainy day
Play with MGK and I will pull up where you stay (Yeah)
I die for my brother, I don't have nothin' to say (No)
I died when my baby mama told me I was fake (Damn)
I got real shooters, they ain't worried 'bout a case (Woah)
I got people talkin', but won't say shit to my face (Yeah)
EST for life, my opps all rolling in they grave (Damn)
See me doin' good, I put that work in like a slave (Work)
Up all night, mind cloudy, don't be spooked
If I show you love, then will you always tell the truth? (Truth)
Feel like I'm goin' crazy, couldn't trust no one but you (You)
Suicidal thoughts keep tellin' me jump off the roof
If I die tonight, know, I ain't got nothin' to prove
CSI gon' say we was the realest in the room
Fuck with mine, I kill 'cause I got everything to lose
Fuck with mama, you know what I'll do (Yeah)
[Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly]
If I die before I wake, smoke me out at Heaven's gate
Bring me back to life on Sunday, pour me up the devil's drink
Wake up, go to work on Monday, grind it out for seven straight
You showed me that just because we're blood don't mean we relate
[Post-Chorus: Machine Gun Kelly & Phem with Lil Skies]
All my dark days came in the summer
All my thoughts changed, now I'm the loner
Everything stayed, you were the runner
Watched your train go away through the tunnels
[Outro: Fingazz & Lil Skies]
Ooh, ooh, ooh
The memories (Woah) keep playing on repeat (Yeah)
I burn 'em all so I can start sleeping (Woah)
And all the bad, I'll make it good (Yeah)
I wouldn't change the past if I could (Woah)
These memories, they won't get the best of me, whoa (Yeah)
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh