Released: April 4, 2014
Featuring: HYOLYN (효린)
Songwriter: Mad Clown (매드클라운) eSNa (에스나) 민연재 (Min Yeon Jae) 김도훈 (Kim Do Hoon)
Producer: 김도훈 (Kim Do Hoon) eSNa (에스나)
Korean (Original)
[Verse 1: Mad Clown]
402호 빈집 불 꺼졌네
온몸이 터널 같아 허전해
밤은 낮을 걷어내고 비가 내린 것 같지는
않은데 내 눈가 어? 젖었네
똑똑 넌 여기 없는 것 같아
조심스레 현관문 열고 들어간 다음
안쪽에서 문을 잠그네 철컥
너를 떠나 보내는 소리 철컥
[Verse 2: Mad Clown]
니가 나간 추억이란 방 홀로 남아
니 멋대로 어질러놓은 기억들을 난 담아
떠나가는 입장과
떠나 보내는 입장은 항상 달라 둘은 전혀
다른 심장 니가 뭘 알아
너만 편한 거짓말로 날 계속 아프게 하지마
그래 넌 돌아서서 가
사랑했으니까 넌 다치지 않을 만큼만
날 옆에 둔거니까 니가 외롭지 않을 만큼만
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
견딜만해 지낼만해
어차피 다치지 않을 만큼
사랑했으니까 But I still love you
참을만해 말하지만
자존심 땜에 하지 못한 말
헤어지지 말자 Cuz I still love you
다 거짓말 I’m fine 다 거짓말 I’m fine
Even without you Even without you
[Verse 3: Mad Clown]
견딜만해 괜찮아 생각보다
견딜만해 내 삶에 니가 없어도
친절하지 못했던 이별의 방식이었지만
걱정 마 견딜만해 난 보기보다
빨랠 돌리다 티비를 켜 잠시 멍
때리다 책상에 앉아 책을 펴 밥을 먹어
니가 빠져버린 내 일상 별로 달라진
건 없어 사랑했거든 넌 다치지 않을 만큼만
[Verse 4: Mad Clown]
나 이별을 똑바로 마주보는 법 몰라서
슬픔 앞에 고슴도치마냥 웅크렸어
아닌 척 정말로 나 노력하고 있지만
숨을 안 쉬는 것 빼곤 별 짓 다해봐도 아퍼
언젠가 사랑을 잃었을 때
다시는 그러지 않겠다
가슴에 아프게 새긴 노랫말
미련을 추하다 여기지 말 것
또 기꺼이 아파하고 마음껏 울을 것
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
견딜만해 지낼만해
어차피 다치지 않을 만큼
사랑했으니까 But I still love you
참을만해 말하지만
자존심 땜에 하지 못한 말
헤어지지 말자 Cuz I still love you
[Verse 5: Mad Clown]
서로의 마음 각도기처럼
재곤 했던 우린 결국
딱 그만큼의 사랑 딱 그만큼의 집
쉴 곳도 돼주지 못한
채 서로를 가두기 바빴고
보금자리가 돼주기보다
문을 굳게 닫은 창고
[Verse 6: Mad Clown]
추억은 빈집에 갇히고
우린 여기 다신 안 와
한가지 확실한 건
그런 감정 이제는 다신 안 와
잘 지내 내 모든 맘으로 널 그리워해
사랑은 갇히고
난 바깥에서 문을 잠그네 빈집
[Outro: Hyolyn]
너 들리니 거기 있니
더 많이 안아주지 못한 나
이기적이던 나 정말 미안해
이별 앞에서 너 앞에서
자존심 땜에 하지 못한 말
헤어지지 말자 Cuz I still love you
다 거짓말 I’m fine 다 거짓말 I’m fine
Even without you Even without you
English (Translated)
[Verse 1: Mad Clown]
APT 402, an empty house, the lights are off
My body’s like a tunnel, it feels so empty
Night takes over day and
I don't think it's raining but my eyes are wet
Knock knock, I don’t think you’re here
I carefully open the door and go in
I lock the door, click
The sound of letting you go, click
[Verse 2: Mad Clown]
I’m alone in the room called memories that you left
Collecting all the memories you've carelessly scattered around
The one leaving and the one letting go
Are always different
Two different hearts
What do you know?
Stop hurting me with your easily told lies
Just turn away and leave
You loved me just enough to not get hurt
You kept me around just enough to not feel lonely
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
It’s bearable, it’s liveable
Because I loved you just enough to not get hurt
But I still love you
It’s bearable, that’s what I say
But my ego stopped me from saying
Let’s not break up
Cuz I still love you
It’s all a lie, I’m fine, it’s all a lie, I’m fine
Even without you, Even without you
[Verse 3: Mad Clown]
It’s bearable, it’s alright
It’s better than I thought it’d be without you in my life
It wasn’t a nice way to break up but don’t worry
It’s more bearable than it seems
I do the laundry and turn on the TV
I blankly sit at the desk and read a book and eat
My life isn't much different without you
You loved me just enough to not get hurt
[Verse 4: Mad Clown]
I don’t know how to look at this breakup straight in the eye
So I’m balled up like a porcupine in front of sadness
I’m really trying to pretend to be fine but it hurts
Even after I tried doing everything besides not breathe
Some day, if I ever lose love again
I won’t be like this again
I engrave these sad lyrics into my heart
Don’t think that not getting over you is pathetic
I’ll hurt all I want and cry all I want
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
It’s bearable, it’s liveable
Because I loved you just enough to not get hurt
But I still love you
It’s bearable, that’s what I say
But there are words I couldn’t say because of my pride
Let’s not break up
Cuz I still love you
[Verse 5: Mad Clown]
We were protractors
Measuring the degrees of our feelings
In the end, that’s exactly
How much love and life there was
We couldn’t even become
Resting places for each other
But were busy trapping each other up
We weren't safe havens
But locked up storages to each other
[Verse 6: Mad Clown]
Memories were trapped
In an empty house that we won’t ever visit again
One thing is for sure
We'll never feel what we felt again
Take care, I miss you with my whole heart
Love is trapped
And I’m locking up the empty house from outside
[Outro: Hyolyn]
Can you hear me? Are you there?
I’m sorry I didn't hug you more
I’m sorry for being so selfish
In front of our breakup, in front of you
But there are words I couldn’t say because of my pride
Let’s not break up
Cuz I still love you
It’s all a lie, I’m fine, it’s all a lie, I’m fine
Even without you, Even without you
[Verse 1: Mad Clown]
402호 빈집 불 꺼졌네
온몸이 터널 같아 허전해
밤은 낮을 걷어내고 비가 내린 것 같지는
않은데 내 눈가 어? 젖었네
똑똑 넌 여기 없는 것 같아
조심스레 현관문 열고 들어간 다음
안쪽에서 문을 잠그네 철컥
너를 떠나 보내는 소리 철컥
[Verse 2: Mad Clown]
니가 나간 추억이란 방 홀로 남아
니 멋대로 어질러놓은 기억들을 난 담아
떠나가는 입장과
떠나 보내는 입장은 항상 달라 둘은 전혀
다른 심장 니가 뭘 알아
너만 편한 거짓말로 날 계속 아프게 하지마
그래 넌 돌아서서 가
사랑했으니까 넌 다치지 않을 만큼만
날 옆에 둔거니까 니가 외롭지 않을 만큼만
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
견딜만해 지낼만해
어차피 다치지 않을 만큼
사랑했으니까 But I still love you
참을만해 말하지만
자존심 땜에 하지 못한 말
헤어지지 말자 Cuz I still love you
다 거짓말 I’m fine 다 거짓말 I’m fine
Even without you Even without you
[Verse 3: Mad Clown]
견딜만해 괜찮아 생각보다
견딜만해 내 삶에 니가 없어도
친절하지 못했던 이별의 방식이었지만
걱정 마 견딜만해 난 보기보다
빨랠 돌리다 티비를 켜 잠시 멍
때리다 책상에 앉아 책을 펴 밥을 먹어
니가 빠져버린 내 일상 별로 달라진
건 없어 사랑했거든 넌 다치지 않을 만큼만
[Verse 4: Mad Clown]
나 이별을 똑바로 마주보는 법 몰라서
슬픔 앞에 고슴도치마냥 웅크렸어
아닌 척 정말로 나 노력하고 있지만
숨을 안 쉬는 것 빼곤 별 짓 다해봐도 아퍼
언젠가 사랑을 잃었을 때
다시는 그러지 않겠다
가슴에 아프게 새긴 노랫말
미련을 추하다 여기지 말 것
또 기꺼이 아파하고 마음껏 울을 것
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
견딜만해 지낼만해
어차피 다치지 않을 만큼
사랑했으니까 But I still love you
참을만해 말하지만
자존심 땜에 하지 못한 말
헤어지지 말자 Cuz I still love you
[Verse 5: Mad Clown]
서로의 마음 각도기처럼
재곤 했던 우린 결국
딱 그만큼의 사랑 딱 그만큼의 집
쉴 곳도 돼주지 못한
채 서로를 가두기 바빴고
보금자리가 돼주기보다
문을 굳게 닫은 창고
[Verse 6: Mad Clown]
추억은 빈집에 갇히고
우린 여기 다신 안 와
한가지 확실한 건
그런 감정 이제는 다신 안 와
잘 지내 내 모든 맘으로 널 그리워해
사랑은 갇히고
난 바깥에서 문을 잠그네 빈집
[Outro: Hyolyn]
너 들리니 거기 있니
더 많이 안아주지 못한 나
이기적이던 나 정말 미안해
이별 앞에서 너 앞에서
자존심 땜에 하지 못한 말
헤어지지 말자 Cuz I still love you
다 거짓말 I’m fine 다 거짓말 I’m fine
Even without you Even without you
English (Translated)
[Verse 1: Mad Clown]
APT 402, an empty house, the lights are off
My body’s like a tunnel, it feels so empty
Night takes over day and
I don't think it's raining but my eyes are wet
Knock knock, I don’t think you’re here
I carefully open the door and go in
I lock the door, click
The sound of letting you go, click
[Verse 2: Mad Clown]
I’m alone in the room called memories that you left
Collecting all the memories you've carelessly scattered around
The one leaving and the one letting go
Are always different
Two different hearts
What do you know?
Stop hurting me with your easily told lies
Just turn away and leave
You loved me just enough to not get hurt
You kept me around just enough to not feel lonely
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
It’s bearable, it’s liveable
Because I loved you just enough to not get hurt
But I still love you
It’s bearable, that’s what I say
But my ego stopped me from saying
Let’s not break up
Cuz I still love you
It’s all a lie, I’m fine, it’s all a lie, I’m fine
Even without you, Even without you
[Verse 3: Mad Clown]
It’s bearable, it’s alright
It’s better than I thought it’d be without you in my life
It wasn’t a nice way to break up but don’t worry
It’s more bearable than it seems
I do the laundry and turn on the TV
I blankly sit at the desk and read a book and eat
My life isn't much different without you
You loved me just enough to not get hurt
[Verse 4: Mad Clown]
I don’t know how to look at this breakup straight in the eye
So I’m balled up like a porcupine in front of sadness
I’m really trying to pretend to be fine but it hurts
Even after I tried doing everything besides not breathe
Some day, if I ever lose love again
I won’t be like this again
I engrave these sad lyrics into my heart
Don’t think that not getting over you is pathetic
I’ll hurt all I want and cry all I want
[Chorus: Hyolyn]
It’s bearable, it’s liveable
Because I loved you just enough to not get hurt
But I still love you
It’s bearable, that’s what I say
But there are words I couldn’t say because of my pride
Let’s not break up
Cuz I still love you
[Verse 5: Mad Clown]
We were protractors
Measuring the degrees of our feelings
In the end, that’s exactly
How much love and life there was
We couldn’t even become
Resting places for each other
But were busy trapping each other up
We weren't safe havens
But locked up storages to each other
[Verse 6: Mad Clown]
Memories were trapped
In an empty house that we won’t ever visit again
One thing is for sure
We'll never feel what we felt again
Take care, I miss you with my whole heart
Love is trapped
And I’m locking up the empty house from outside
[Outro: Hyolyn]
Can you hear me? Are you there?
I’m sorry I didn't hug you more
I’m sorry for being so selfish
In front of our breakup, in front of you
But there are words I couldn’t say because of my pride
Let’s not break up
Cuz I still love you
It’s all a lie, I’m fine, it’s all a lie, I’m fine
Even without you, Even without you