Released: May 1, 2012

Songwriter: NF

Producer: NF

[Chorus]
(Yeah)
(Ooohh, yeah)
Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you
I can see you there
Yeah (yeah), oh
Sometimes I like to pretend like I'm not scared
Like I don't need you
I don't need you here, no (yeah)
Yeah

[Verse 1]
I don't deserve it
I ain't even worthy
Yet you give me water when I tell you that I'm thirsty
Still I take some things in life that really wanna hurt me
I say I'm livin' clean but I be livin' dirty
Back and forth swervin' like it don't mean nothin'
I'm married to my sins so I treat it like I love it
I kiss it and I hug it and don't put nothin' above it
You tell me to just let it go, I say that I ain't budgin'
I rather be a killer, be a sinner, be a liar
I make my own wings, yeah
That's how I'm flyin'
It's all about me, I don't see that I'm blinded
And one day I'ma wake up and wonder where all my time went
I just

[Chorus]
Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you
I can see you there
Yeah (yeah), oh
Sometimes I like to pretend like I'm not scared
Like I don't need you
I don't need you here, no (yeah)
Yeah

[Verse 2]
You gave me a gift, God, I ain't gon' waste it
I don't want the whole world, I just wanna taste it
I just want a little bit, you know, somethin' basic
What's wrong with doin' drugs, gettin' high, and gettin' wasted?
You tell me to face it, but I can't confront it
I look at my problems that turn around runnin'
I don't like what I'm becomin'
And even though I say that
Once I get away from it, I know I'ma stray back
Sick of wakin' up, wondering where my faith at
Told you I'm a liar, that's probably why I hate facts
Nevertheless, as I look out this window today and see your outstretched arms and tears on your face
I realize, God, really need your help
I ain't been livin' for you, Jesus, I been livin' for myself
Been caught up in the world and caught up in the sin
Time to unlock the door, kill my pride, and let you in

[Chorus]
Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you
I can see you there
Yeah (yeah), oh
Sometimes I like to pretend like I'm not scared
Like I don't need you
I don't need you here, no

[Outro]
And now I raise my hands for the Son of Man
You're all I neeeeed, yeah
And now I praise your name
Lord, take everything
You're all I seeeee, yeah
I'm not the same as I used to be
Yo, you wanna see a change, there's a change in me
I'm just tryna make you understand, basically
I'm not the same, I'm not the same
I'm not the same as I used to be
Yo, you wanna see a change, there's a change in me
I'm just tryna make you understand, basically
I'm not the same, I'm not the same
No, no, no
Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you
I can see you there
Yeah (yeah), oh

NF

NF (stylized as ИF), real name Nathan Feuerstein (pronounced “fire-STINE”), is a rapper and songwriter from the small town of Gladwin, Michigan. As a child, Nate’s parents went through a divorce, where he would then live with his mother. Later on, Nate’s life started getting more difficult whenever his mother’s boyfriend started physically abusing him. However, the most traumatic event in Nate’s life was finding his mother dead from a drug overdose.

During the hard times of his life, Nate would fall back on music to escape from the world and express himself freely by writing music and then recording it on his karaoke machine with instrumentals playing in the background. In 2008, Nate participated in the Fine Arts Festival rap competition.

In 2010, he released his first album, Moments, independently. The album got him a record deal with Xist Music in 2012, with a new stage name, NF. Nate released two songs with Xist, and an EP was announced, but never released because he decided to leave the label (however, most of these songs can be found online). NF starting working with fellow Michigan producer, Tommee Profitt, searching for a new label.