Released: July 26, 2019

Songwriter: NF Saint X

Producer: Saint X NF

[Verse 1]
Yeah, growing up, yeah
Know a lot, but I don't know enough
What you doin' here?
Why you even showin' up? Yeah
Showin' up for tryna show me love
Why you look confused like you don't really know what's up? Yeah
Why you always tryna judge?
I know who you are, yeah
Why you tryna, tryna front? Yeah
I am not the man I was, look
Ayy, made me a promise, I just hope you keep it
I don't like to get involved with things I don't believe in
I don't like to hang with people I don't trust to speak with
If you tell me that you mean it, then I hope you mean it
Yeah, feel like I don't deserve you when I hurt your feelings
I'm vulnerable, you got the keys to open all my secrets
You've always been there when I'm low to help pick up the pieces
I know I act like I don't need you yet, but lately, I've been thinking

[Chorus]
Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I wish that I was optimistic
I wish that I could trust my intuition
To most, negative thinking makes you a pessimist, but
To me, negative thinking means I'm just realistic
That's how I feel, ain't that a twisted view?
Claim that I don't care what people think, but is that really true?
Those the type of questions that I struggle with
That's the type of thing to keep me up at night
Wondering, I wonder if the pressure I've been under is too much on my shoulders
Who gon' care when this all fades, I turn gray and get older?
Yeah, that's the type of thing that I don't wanna answer
But just 'cause I don't wanna do it don't mean I don't have to
See, these are lessons that you learn in life
And we only get one of 'em, hope I'm learning right
I know that everything comes with a price
Yeah, yeah, everything comes with a price
Y'all got no clue what I have sacrificed
And lately, I've been thinking

[Chorus]
Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking (I have been thinking)

NF

NF (stylized as ИF), real name Nathan Feuerstein (pronounced “fire-STINE”), is a rapper and songwriter from the small town of Gladwin, Michigan. As a child, Nate’s parents went through a divorce, where he would then live with his mother. Later on, Nate’s life started getting more difficult whenever his mother’s boyfriend started physically abusing him. However, the most traumatic event in Nate’s life was finding his mother dead from a drug overdose.

During the hard times of his life, Nate would fall back on music to escape from the world and express himself freely by writing music and then recording it on his karaoke machine with instrumentals playing in the background. In 2008, Nate participated in the Fine Arts Festival rap competition.

In 2010, he released his first album, Moments, independently. The album got him a record deal with Xist Music in 2012, with a new stage name, NF. Nate released two songs with Xist, and an EP was announced, but never released because he decided to leave the label (however, most of these songs can be found online). NF starting working with fellow Michigan producer, Tommee Profitt, searching for a new label.