Released: April 5, 2020
Songwriter: Joell Ortiz KXNG Crooked Joe Budden Royce da 5'9"
[Sample Intro]
[Verse 1: KXNG Crooked]
An open letter to my daughters
First off I'ma apologize for secrets your father hides, put tears in your mama's eyes
Y'all on the opposite side of a bedroom door
Hearing your mama's cries; to say that traumatized you
Would dramatize things, but still, it's fucked up to go through
Like when we were sitting in my car, and I told you
I cheated on your mother, got another women pregnant
And y'all got a baby brother, I feel like such a sucker for fucking up
Rain dropping on top of the beamer
Tears dropping in bottle of Aquafina amounts
No excuses, can't blame it on the fact I'm making music, can't blame it on rap life, it's the choice a n***ga chooses
They say be the type of man you wan't your daughters to be with
Something I thought I agreed with, until I looked in the mirror
Be with somebody way better than me, still I drop my bar forgive your pops, my daughters
[Verse 2: Joe Budden]
I told you I would ride for you, thought I was your crest
Cause' I told you I would die for you, what did I decide to do?
Cheat and lie to you, I'm sure that pain was undeniable
But I can't find any new places for me to hide the truth
Put this on the bible, so I'm closer to God
For kicking you out of a crib that was supposed to be ours
The fight you never should have been in, you vs. the side bitch
Handed you the baggage, but you'll curl on the fly twist
That's a threat, total lack of respect
Even made you feel unattractive, I was average at best
See I put these other hoes in your car, in your bed
My wife in your life, your mind, my head
So she left me, not like I gave her a choice
How could we ever raise kids, I'm busy raising my voice
And I'm trying now to live with myself
How could you forgive me when I ain't learn how to forgive myself
[Interlude: Joe Budden]
Look, I'm sorry...
[?]
Couple of truths we've got to have so we can walk through this fire unscaved
Trust, communications, commitment, compassion
I want you to be as patient as I am
I was a boy then, talking to a man now
So I won't treat you like that
I want to treat you like I'm a man now, want to treat you like the woman you deserve to be treated like
I love you
Uh, talk to em y'all
God got us
[Verse 3: Joell Ortiz]
If I would see homie right now would be a bang out
Witnesses would be like, too wicked, just let them ring out
Try to knock each other brains out, so many shots, I can't count
They would never know me and son used to hang out
Everybody making mistakes, but my mistake, ouch
Why the fuck did I go to that party and I ended up in Laurene's house
Bring that half-gallon of E&J out, blow haze out my nose, all these hoes ended on Lauren couch
That n**ga's a motherfucker, my n**ga bitch, I'ma sucka
She sittin under them covers eyes dripping
Why did I touch her, I'm tripping, I gotta figure now how to fuck him up
Tell my brother I stuck my dick in his baby mother, what the?
I didn't even get the chance to
Came out in my man's crew, threw shots at me constantly as I ran through
Heard him yelling 'damn you' as he tried to clear me
If it's seventeen years of drama, he's still [???]
[Verse 4: Royce da 5'9"]
Art be the kind way to speak and bind with brothers
I don't get why people be talking about how blinding love is
I feel out with my oldest sibling over nothing, we're both stubborn
They say you can't take the heat, get out the kitchen
Half my life my wife is standing inside of mines with an open oven
I know I crossed lines so If I say some thing to you baby I can't say to your face because you'd probably slap across mines
I fucked a lot of bitches
And if you think it means I did it because I don't love you, then you got it twisted
It's just something about a n**ga that's out here about his business that attract the kind of chicks that's honored just to be a side piece
I even thought I loved a couple of em
Bought em things, laid up with em, all the things you can't stand, I would say I'm a changed man
But I lied to you so much to do what I thought was to protect your feelings, my words don't mean shit no more
[Verse 1: KXNG Crooked]
An open letter to my daughters
First off I'ma apologize for secrets your father hides, put tears in your mama's eyes
Y'all on the opposite side of a bedroom door
Hearing your mama's cries; to say that traumatized you
Would dramatize things, but still, it's fucked up to go through
Like when we were sitting in my car, and I told you
I cheated on your mother, got another women pregnant
And y'all got a baby brother, I feel like such a sucker for fucking up
Rain dropping on top of the beamer
Tears dropping in bottle of Aquafina amounts
No excuses, can't blame it on the fact I'm making music, can't blame it on rap life, it's the choice a n***ga chooses
They say be the type of man you wan't your daughters to be with
Something I thought I agreed with, until I looked in the mirror
Be with somebody way better than me, still I drop my bar forgive your pops, my daughters
[Verse 2: Joe Budden]
I told you I would ride for you, thought I was your crest
Cause' I told you I would die for you, what did I decide to do?
Cheat and lie to you, I'm sure that pain was undeniable
But I can't find any new places for me to hide the truth
Put this on the bible, so I'm closer to God
For kicking you out of a crib that was supposed to be ours
The fight you never should have been in, you vs. the side bitch
Handed you the baggage, but you'll curl on the fly twist
That's a threat, total lack of respect
Even made you feel unattractive, I was average at best
See I put these other hoes in your car, in your bed
My wife in your life, your mind, my head
So she left me, not like I gave her a choice
How could we ever raise kids, I'm busy raising my voice
And I'm trying now to live with myself
How could you forgive me when I ain't learn how to forgive myself
[Interlude: Joe Budden]
Look, I'm sorry...
[?]
Couple of truths we've got to have so we can walk through this fire unscaved
Trust, communications, commitment, compassion
I want you to be as patient as I am
I was a boy then, talking to a man now
So I won't treat you like that
I want to treat you like I'm a man now, want to treat you like the woman you deserve to be treated like
I love you
Uh, talk to em y'all
God got us
[Verse 3: Joell Ortiz]
If I would see homie right now would be a bang out
Witnesses would be like, too wicked, just let them ring out
Try to knock each other brains out, so many shots, I can't count
They would never know me and son used to hang out
Everybody making mistakes, but my mistake, ouch
Why the fuck did I go to that party and I ended up in Laurene's house
Bring that half-gallon of E&J out, blow haze out my nose, all these hoes ended on Lauren couch
That n**ga's a motherfucker, my n**ga bitch, I'ma sucka
She sittin under them covers eyes dripping
Why did I touch her, I'm tripping, I gotta figure now how to fuck him up
Tell my brother I stuck my dick in his baby mother, what the?
I didn't even get the chance to
Came out in my man's crew, threw shots at me constantly as I ran through
Heard him yelling 'damn you' as he tried to clear me
If it's seventeen years of drama, he's still [???]
[Verse 4: Royce da 5'9"]
Art be the kind way to speak and bind with brothers
I don't get why people be talking about how blinding love is
I feel out with my oldest sibling over nothing, we're both stubborn
They say you can't take the heat, get out the kitchen
Half my life my wife is standing inside of mines with an open oven
I know I crossed lines so If I say some thing to you baby I can't say to your face because you'd probably slap across mines
I fucked a lot of bitches
And if you think it means I did it because I don't love you, then you got it twisted
It's just something about a n**ga that's out here about his business that attract the kind of chicks that's honored just to be a side piece
I even thought I loved a couple of em
Bought em things, laid up with em, all the things you can't stand, I would say I'm a changed man
But I lied to you so much to do what I thought was to protect your feelings, my words don't mean shit no more
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