Released: November 15, 2019
Featuring: Macklemore
Songwriter: Mary Lambert Budo Macklemore
[Verse 1]
My brain is a house divided
Rooms with too many doors
I can't tell you why
It's a home without a light
I spent most of my years
Trying to burn the roof
Stop being an arsonist, oh I was
Waiting for the wind
[Pre-Chorus]
I've seen people do crazy things
I've seen it in myself
But I'm not going back there
Planning my darkest hour
[Chorus]
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of mirrors
It's me against me
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of windows
It's me against me
Ah, ah
It's me fighting me
Oh
[Rap]
Yeah
I saw God on the sidewalk once
Walking towards me; I thought that I was dreaming
Put my hoody on over my head, tucked to my neck
Crossed the street, pretended I didn't see him
I keep beer close, and I keep love just out of arm's reach
Probably for a reason
Cos if I touch it, and learn it, and study it
I'll know how shallow it really is in the deep end
Why do I still wanna swim?
Why can't I surrender to the voices within?
Why can't losing it all in the wounds from the fall
Be enough to never do it never again?
I forget how bad it is
This fleeting happiness
Self sabotage, another means to balance in
Another Hail Mary to write my way out of hell
But I don't think that I'm ready to fully forgive myself
The truth they admire
But you are a liar
Psychiatrists wanna put my psychopathic self on mood stabilisers
Ruled by desire
The prayer doesn't work if the pew is on fire
Like
[Pre-Chorus]
I've seen people do crazy things
I've seen it in myself
But I'm not going back there
Planning my darkest hours
[Chorus]
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of mirrors
It's me against me
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of windows
It's me against me
Ah, ah
It's me fighting me
Oh
My brain is a house divided
Rooms with too many doors
I can't tell you why
It's a home without a light
I spent most of my years
Trying to burn the roof
Stop being an arsonist, oh I was
Waiting for the wind
[Pre-Chorus]
I've seen people do crazy things
I've seen it in myself
But I'm not going back there
Planning my darkest hour
[Chorus]
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of mirrors
It's me against me
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of windows
It's me against me
Ah, ah
It's me fighting me
Oh
[Rap]
Yeah
I saw God on the sidewalk once
Walking towards me; I thought that I was dreaming
Put my hoody on over my head, tucked to my neck
Crossed the street, pretended I didn't see him
I keep beer close, and I keep love just out of arm's reach
Probably for a reason
Cos if I touch it, and learn it, and study it
I'll know how shallow it really is in the deep end
Why do I still wanna swim?
Why can't I surrender to the voices within?
Why can't losing it all in the wounds from the fall
Be enough to never do it never again?
I forget how bad it is
This fleeting happiness
Self sabotage, another means to balance in
Another Hail Mary to write my way out of hell
But I don't think that I'm ready to fully forgive myself
The truth they admire
But you are a liar
Psychiatrists wanna put my psychopathic self on mood stabilisers
Ruled by desire
The prayer doesn't work if the pew is on fire
Like
[Pre-Chorus]
I've seen people do crazy things
I've seen it in myself
But I'm not going back there
Planning my darkest hours
[Chorus]
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of mirrors
It's me against me
Blocking all the windows
In a house full of windows
It's me against me
Ah, ah
It's me fighting me
Oh
From the album
- Grief Creature (2019)
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