Released: August 27, 2021

Songwriter: Jack Rutter

Producer: Jack Rutter

[Verse 1]
My character's breaking
Thought I had this memorized
It doesn't help that I'm wasted
With these lights right in my eyes
Why's it still feel like I'm taking
Center stage from someone else?
Why's it still feel like I'm faking
When I'm starring as myself?

[Verse 2]
Got three more hours back from LA
And my Nissan's breaking down
Grab a replacement on the way
Got money for it now
Welcome to spotlit vacation
Where the silence grows like trees
I'm fielding congratulations
While I'm choking on the leaves

[Chorus]
Should I keep on searching?
(Is this really all there is? I try)
I'm trying to turn in
(What if I already did?)
To I
I
I'm trying
I'm trying

[Verse 3]
They say the mind's a good servant
As a master, it is fucked
Convinced it's gotta be perfect
No such thing as good enough
You got a head full of what-ifs
And it's keeping you afloat
And you've got better days coming
Doesn't mean they're tomorrow

[Chorus]
Should I keep on searching?
(Is this really all there is? I try)
I'm trying to turn in
(What if I already did?)
To I
To I (If I already did, if I already did, I'm scared that I already did)
To try (I'm scared that I already did, I'm scared that I already did)
To try (I'm scared that I already did, I'm scared that I already did)

Ritt Momney

Ritt Momney (originally called the spooks) is the indie solo project of Salt Lake City native Jack Rutter.

Under the name the spooks, Ritt Momney released their first single, Cold, which gained popularity in the hallways of Highland High School in Salt Lake City, Utah in the spring of 2016. The original members were Jack Rutter, his now ex-girlfriend Lindsey Lloyd, and friends Auden Winchester, Hank Thompson, Zach Olson, and Chris Kearl.

Beginning as an indie rock band comprised of high school friends, the project became a personal outlet for Rutter after his bandmates left on Latter-Day Saint missions and his girlfriend left for college. In his bedroom, he began writing, recording, and producing his upcoming debut LP, entitled “Her and All of My Friends,” in which Rutter grapples with loss, loneliness, and his drift away from Utah Latter-Day Saint culture. Nowadays, the band’s members often come and go, leaving Jack Rutter at the center of it all. Besides Rutter, there is no ‘official’ set of band members.