GHOST​abbot (USA)

(Verse 1)
I miss my friends back home
I miss my family in Jersey
I made some songs for my ex but I really hope she ain't heard me
I miss the way way she used to run her fingers up and down my back
And recently I've noticed I've avoided that with anybody else
Cause nobody else made me want to clean my mental health
Other than myself
Been on my lonely (?)
I've been on my own
Moved away from my home all alone
Couldn't leave the nest
Chain around my neck, so I had to go

Call myself abbot, I made it a habit (what)
Couple of months I was borderline addict
(yuh) No way, pass me the bottle, don't know how to act (oh)
Yeah, couple more months and I'd end in a casket
Came to the point where the high was my average

I wish my parents didn't blame themselves for my depression or the way that I act
(I wish I had the strength to say I'm sorry to the people that i've ghosted in the past)
I wish I could apologize to her, cause she's the reason that I'm still alive today
But
It's okay, I understand that I'm the problem and my tendencies push everyone away
But HD, I put my everything in HD
Where will you be October 18th?
I hope you're listening in HD