Released: November 17, 2016

Songwriter: Two Inch Punch Rex Orange County

Producer: Two Inch Punch

[Intro]
Yeah, I don't know where to start
How do you admit that you're falling apart?
I mean, how will I admit that I'm falling apart?
My mother's gonna worry but I'm fine in my heart
I've lived the words that I've said
And I live with a voice that tends to tell me that I'm shit in my head
Well maybe I should fuck it and be happy instead
I should just say "fuck it and be happy instead", right? Right

[Verse 1]
'Cause there's a lot of people tryin' to tell me how to deal with myself
But I'm not gonna listen if you mention my health
I don't care, don't tell me and don't text me
'Cause that kind of shit upsets me, just kind of affects me

[Pre-Chorus]
And it's bringing me down, and I'm not gonna lie
These days I prefer to just not be outside
And these days I just end up spending all of my time
With my girlfriend, but to be honest, I think that's alright

[Chorus]
'Cause time keeps rollin' and I'm just makin' songs
(I'm doing my best, still find myself stressed)
And I'm no longer sure where I belong
(I'm starting to rust, don't know who to trust)
(Don't trust anyone. Not even me.)

[Verse 2]
Some people concentrate on style too much
But I think I just force myself to smile too much
And that should soon end for the best
I wanna live my life with no stress
Love life and feel blessed, like
It's kind of funny on the inside
I'm tryin' to be a man, but really I'm just a little child, shit
And that's pretty much it, yeah, that's pretty much it
(Is there anything else?)

[Verse 3]
Oh yeah
My jaw hurts a lot because I grind it with stress (Uh-huh?)
I was an idiot recently and lost a lot of my friends (Aw)
Nothing brings me joy and nothing makes me smile
Being at school makes me aware of how I haven't been myself in awhile (Oh)
And I wonder what it was like to be 11
Wonder if there's such a thing as life after death, such a thing as heaven (Why?)
And every now and then I think about the fact that I'd become a legend if I died at 27

Rex Orange County

Alex O'Connor (born May 4, 1998), better known by his stage name Rex Orange County, is an English singer-songwriter.

O'Connor grew up in Grayshott, a village in Hampshire, England. At 16, when his peers transferred to the local high school, O’Connor was accepted to London’s renowned music college The BRIT School, where he began writing music.

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