Released: March 14, 2016

Songwriter: Wheesung Jessica Ho

Producer: ZigZag Note

English Translation

[Verse 1]
I had to give you freedom
I said things that would drive you crazy
After our break up, what I remember is
How you held it in even when I shouted
What were you thinking about?

[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe you tried to be a man and end things
That always remains in me, I can’t fall asleep
I did too many things that were hateful

[Chorus]
The start of my love was fire, the end was tears
It was all like a war, memories were strong like the ocean
The past is like a ghost, only sadness is reality
I just hate myself for not acknowledging this

[Verse 2]
You fed me well so my love’s gotten fat
I think it’ll take a while to lose the weight
I miss you, I’m looking at you
From here and there when we used to be together

[Chorus]
The start of my love was fire, the end was tears
It was all like a war, memories were strong like the ocean
The past is like a ghost, only sadness is reality
I just hate myself for not acknowledging this

[Bridge]
I know where the exit is
But I’m stopped in the tunnel
I don’t wanna come out of your memories
I try and try
But I know I can’t ever go back
So Here I Stand
So Here I am

[Chorus]
The start of my love was fire, the end was tears
It was all like a war, memories were strong like the ocean
The past is like a ghost, only sadness is reality
I just hate myself for not acknowledging this

Korean Original

[Verse 1]
자유를 줘야 했어 너에게 난
들판을 뛰는 말을 가두 듯 했지
이별 후 머리를 스치는 건
내가 소리칠 때 참던 넌
무슨 생각을 했을까 어쩜 넌
끝을 내려
좀 남자답게 보이려 했을지도

[Pre-Chorus]
그게 맘에 걸려
잠에 들 수 없어
난 미움 받을 짓을
너무 많이 했나 봐

[Chorus]
내 사랑의 시작은 불 끝은 눈물
모두 전쟁 같고 바다처럼
강렬했던 기억들
과거는 다 유령 슬픔만이 현실
다만 이걸 인정 못하는 내가 미워

[Verse 2]
잘 먹여줘서 살찐 사랑
빼는데 조금
오래 걸릴 것만 같아
니가 보고 싶어
너를 보고 있어
우리가 함께 있던
세상 여기저기에서

[Chorus]
내 사랑의 시작은
불 끝은 눈물
모두 전쟁 같고 바다처럼
강렬했던 기억들
과거는 다 유령 슬픔만이 현실
다만 이걸 인정 못하는 내가 미워

[Bridge]
출구를 알지만 난
터널 속에 멈춰있어
너라는 추억에서
빠져나가긴 싫어
애를 쓰고 애써도
돌이킬 수 없는걸 알아서
So Here I Stand
So Here I am

[Chorus]
내 사랑의 시작은 불 끝은 눈물
모두 전쟁 같고
바다처럼 강렬했던 기억들
과거는 다 유령 슬픔만이 현실
다만 이걸 인정 못하는 내가 미워

Romanized Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Jayureul jwoya haesseo neoege nan
Deulpaneul ttwineun mareul gadu deut haessji, yeah
Ibyeol hu meorireul seuchineun geon
Naega sorichil ttae chamdeon neon
Museun saenggageul haesseulkka eojjeom neon
Kkeuteul naeryeo
Jom namjadapge boiryeo haesseuljido

[Pre-Chorus]
Geuge mame geollyeo
Jame deul su eopseo
Nan mium badeul jiseul
Neomu manhi haessna bwa

[Chorus]
Nae sarangui sijageun
Bul kkeuteun nunmul
Modu jeonjaeng gatgo
Badacheoreom gangryeolhaessdeon gieokdeul
Gwageoneun da yuryeong seulpeummani hyeonsil
Daman igeol injeong moshaneun naega miwo

[Verse 2]
Jal meogyeojwoseo saljjin sarang
Ppaeneunde jogeum orae geollil geosman gata
Niga bogo sipeo
Neoreul bogo isseo
Uriga hamkke issdeon sesang
Yeogijeogieseo

[Chorus]
Nae sarangui sijageun
Bul kkeuteun nunmul
Modu jeonjaeng gatgo
Badacheoreom gangryeolhaessdeon gieokdeul
Gwageoneun da yuryeong seulpeummani hyeonsil
Daman igeol injeong moshaneun naega miwo

[Bridge]
Chulgureul aljiman
Nan teoneol soge meomchwoisseo
Neoraneun chueogeseo
Ppajyeonagagin silheo
Aereul sseugo aesseodo
Dorikil su eopsneungeol araseo
So Here I Stand
So Here I am

[Chorus]
Nae sarangui sijageun
Bul kkeuteun nunmul
Modu jeonjaeng gatgo
Badacheoreom gangryeolhaessdeon gieokdeul
Gwageoneun da yuryeong seulpeummani hyeonsil
Daman igeol injeong moshaneun naega miwo

Jessi (제시)

Jessi (제시), also known as Jessica H.O, is an American female artist specializing in the rap genre. She is based in South Korea and has participated in popular Korean TV shows, such as, Unpretty Rapstar and High School Rapper.

She released her first album Get Up in 2005, performing the main song on the television program Music Bank. Her second project titled The Rebirth was released in January 2009—after this release, she took a break from the music and left Korea to return to America.

In 2014, after a 5-year hiatus, Jessi returned as a member of the hip-hop trio Lucky J with rapper J'Kyun and vocalist JERO—also known as J-Yo. The group debuted with the digital single “Can You Hear Me” under YMC Entertainment in July of that year, soon to be disbanded as a team due to J-Yo wanting to make a solo debut himself.