Released: August 21, 2020

Songwriter: Andrew Goldstein ​blackbear

Producer: Andrew Goldstein Marshmello ​blackbear

[Verse 1]
You barely left me with the air to breathe
You took it all and now I see the truth
See through your plastic-covered lies
I'm driving through Mullholland
Wish I’d swerved and never fallen
Shoulda seen right through the gap between her thighs

[Pre-Chorus]
Take my heart, my clothes
Take everything I own
Spend my money, spend my time
Lay me down to rest
Lay me down to die
No one makes it out alive

[Chorus]
I'm at the bar downtown
The one we used to go to all of the time
Already halfway dead
The way you left me, girl, I'm half alive
Yeah, I’m half alive
And about that night, and about that night
I was super drunk, I was hella high
I'm at the bar downtown
The one we used to go to all of the time
And I'm half alive

[Verse 2]
A little bit longer, I'll be waiting
I'm a goner, fuck this fake shit
Why you let me down forever?
I wanna be honest, girl, quit playin'
Can we try and, try and save this?
Turn me to a loner

[Pre-Chorus]
Girl, you can take my heart, my clothes
Take everything I own
Spend my money, spend my time
Lay me down to rest
Lay me down to die
No one makes it out alive

[Chorus]
I'm at the bar downtown
The one we used to go to all of the time
Already halfway dead
The way you left me, girl, I'm half alive
Yeah, I’m half alive
And about that night, and about that night
I was super drunk, I was hella high
I’m at the bar downtown
The one we used to go to all of the time
And I'm half alive

[Bridge]
Halfway dead, just the way you left me
I’ll be halfway dead, just the way you left me
I'll be halfway dead, just the way you left me
I'll be halfway dead

[Chorus]
I'm at the bar downtown
The one we used to go to all of the time
Already halfway dead
The way you left me, girl, I’m half alive
Yeah, I'm half alive
And about that night, and about that night
I was super drunk, I was hella high
I'm at the bar downtown
The one we used to go to all of the time
And I'm half alive

[Outro]
And I'm half alive
Half alive

​blackbear

blackbear is the stage name of LA-based producer and singer-songwriter Mat Musto, popularly known for co-writing Justin Bieber’s “Boyfriend,” in 2012. Some of his first collaborations were with the likes of Pharrell Williams, MGK, and Childish Gambino. Later, Musto reinvented himself—he coined the name blackbear from a previous EP titled Year of the Blackbear. Under his new name, he started leaning more towards rapping and an R&B-oriented style.

His first mixtape Sex included collaborations with his peers James Blake, Maejor Ali, and “Boyfriend” co-writer Mike Posner. The Afterglow followed in 2014.

In 2015, blackbear released “idfc,” as the lead single from his debut album Deadroses. It increased his fan following and revenue, earning him millions of playback streams and a spot on Billboard’s Uncharted List of Undiscovered and Upcoming Artists. The second single, “90210,” included a feature from G-Eazy—blackbear made an appearance in his 2014 track, “Remember You.”