Alec Benjamin

Songwriter: Alec Benjamin

Producer: Alec Benjamin

[Verse 1]
Well, I was walkin’ through some shops at the mall
A gold Versace watch was hangin’ up on the wall
And no, I didn’t have the money to ball
So I thought about takin’ it
I saw this movie playin’ up in my head
I walk outside and jack a Mercedes Benz
Go drivin’ down the 5 and even though it’s pretend
Maybe I’m a maniac

[Pre-Chorus]
If it were illegal to have evil in the mind
And they cut me open
Wonder, would they be surprised?
Or are there other people that are equally inclined
To think about the heinous things I think about

[Chorus]
Is it only me?
Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes?
Am I alone, am I some type of criminal?
Oh, if they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Oh, would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Mmmm

[Verse 2]
There’s things I wouldn’t even say to my shrink
'Cause I’m ashamed of what the doctor would think
Like when I felt alone and hated my life
So I thought about takin’ it
I saw this movie playin’ up in my head
Next to my casket were some family and friends
And even though I know that’s not how it ends
There was no shakin’ it

[Pre-Chorus]
If they forced a needle through a cortex in my brain
Wonder what they’d think, that maybe I had gone insane
Or are there other people that are equally deranged
And think about the heinous things I think about

[Chorus]
Is it only me?
Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes?
Am I alone, am I some type of criminal?
Oh, if they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Oh, would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Mmmm

[Bridge]
Tell my mother that I love her
I’m not coming home from jail
I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry
And tell my father not to bother
Waste a dollar on my bail
I’m so sorry, hmm
I’m so sorry

[Chorus]
Is it only me?
Is it unnatural to, to have these thoughts sometimes?
Am I alone, am I some type of criminal?
Oh, if they could read my mind
Would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?
Oh, would they lock me up for life?
Lock me up for life?

After getting dropped by Columbia Records at 18 years old, singer-songwriter Alec Benjamin built a following by playing in parking lots outside of Shawn Mendes and Troye Sivan concerts. The Phoenix, Arizona native caught the attention of Jon Bellion, earning a songwriting credit on Bellion’s debut album and later joined him on tour.

To build on the momentum, Benjamin began uploading new songs to his YouTube channel at a rapid clip and eventually earned on a viral hit with “I Built a Friend” and a deal with Atlantic Records.

Benjamin connects to listeners by incorporating using his life struggles to tell stories and give meaning to his songs. You can see this in “Let Me Down Slowly,” “Paper Crown,” “I Built a Friend,” “Death of a Hero,” and “If We Have Each Other.”

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